Colorgenics Profile...

I was going through an old journal and found this. As I was reading it, I realized how VERY true it was.

You are longing for some love and affection at this time... not that you have been deprived of tender loving care... but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go "somewhere" else to perhaps experience that little extra "understanding"...

You are totally dissatisfied with your present situation. Matters are not going right for you and you are seeking a means of escape. your mental state of mind necessitates that you need to change your thinking patterns. Remember, if one particular modus operendi doesn't seem to work then try soemthing different...

You are not an argumentative person and "rather than fight - you'd switch" (an old cigarette cliche). But when you try to assert yourself - as sometimes you may try to do - you meet with so much resistance and effrontery that manifests itself so obviously that you become hurt, indignant and resentful. So in order to have peace and quiet... you tend to become inhibited, you keep it all to yourself... but deep down - you "feel" and "hurt" a lot...

You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you... that you are so self sufficient that whatever problems beset you - they simply flow off you as water flows off a ducks back... You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact - deep down, you are notat all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can "let your hair down" and share your hopes, dreams and hih standards... You are impossing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all.

Sometimes one fears that it's not worth formulating new ideas and projects because whatever you seem to have some in the past has never worked out... and you are tired of, as they say, banging you head against a brick wall... No one seems to care... So now you are trying to get away from all by withdrawing into a "fantasy land", but unfortunately,
fantasy land" is just that... And sooner or later you will have to return to reality... so why delay the inevitable... When you do, you will find that the situation i not as tough as perhaps youthought it was.

ok, most of it is true... LOL. Maybe saying all was a bit much. But hell, it nailed me good.